Exquisite part 7

  As humans, our way of dealing
with problems is much like how
a mouse runs a maze. The first
time a mouse may never make
it out, so he turns around and
goes back the way he came.
It’s only after knowing there
is a treat or reward at the end
does the mouse make the
effort to reach the end.
  The first time it may take him
an hour to run through the
maze. The second time, 45
minutes, the third time, 30
minutes, until finally he just
breezes through in under a
minute. As he becomes
familiar with dealing with
walls, and missed turns, he
learns what to do to solve
the problem. He remembers
the walls and adjusts
accordingly. Even now,
without the treat being at
the end, cause he knows,
there is a way out.
  I’ve seen people who have been
so ill they couldn’t walk without
assistance. They would travel from
doctor to doctor to doctor, looking
for answers. Death seemingly at their
doorstep. Then they find that one
doctor that tells them they have
cancer, and all is better. The cure
wasn’t the answer, the cause was the
answer. Of course there’s always
exceptions, and people end up
dying from their fears moreso than
the illness. You can’t fight something
you won’t acknowledge, you can’t
acknowledge unless you find the
  That’s how humans learn to
deal with problems, we learn
by running the maze. The
problems don’t go away, but
we get better at dealing with
them or ‘running the maze’.
As long as we develop the
belief that there is a way
out or an answer, we tend
to find it easier to
deal well
with our problems.
  This isn’t easy for Exquisite
because of her need for control.
The maze isn’t a challenge, but
a method of torture for her.
Exquisite’s frustration builds
with every block, every wall,
with every false turn. She
starts to see those walls as
something that’s her fault, she
can fix this if she focused on
that wall, because that wall  
is there because of something
she’s done. The false turns are
the eyes and feelings of some
others, that increases her stress.
She can’t see the way out, she
can’t see the maze/problem.
All she sees are the walls
trapping her. The walls become
the problem.
  Exquisite doesn’t run out of solutions
she runs out of patience. What may
seem like an, ‘I don’t care’ attitude,
is really a feeling of losing control
of the situation, if no control, then
no participation. But, the problem
stays and causes an ever more
sensitive Exquisite to suffer.

to be continued….

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